Unoriginality makes the world go round.

This sux

2005-08-31T01:48:00.000+08:00

Of course it sucks. This blog sucks more than a vacuum cleaner!

My blog gets spammed for something not concerning me. Well, whose blog do you think it belong to now? Of course, who else?

This sucks!

What's this?

2005-08-21T12:26:00.000+08:00

Now. What's this again? Can't anyone just leave this blog alone? This blog has been revolving around someone who wasn't invited to see it. But nevermind, with some particular moron invading it, I doubt there's any inevitability in the revolvement.

It seems that my good friend has been visiting and leaving comments in this blog. Though people say that he's not needed, which he really is, I don't seem to get someone's tag on my tagboard saying things that put my friend in his degraded category.

Really, only I can insult my friend. And my insults are more of trying to rekindle that friendship we shared. My friend is not to be insulted unless you are somehow acquainted to him. You don't see me going around insulting other people's friends or doing things like that.

And anyway, this is my personal space in the cyberspace. Now it's become a discussion forum for talking crap like that. About the latest news about some idiot, I don't really care. But this is getting on my nerves.

I guess this will become a forum for discussing affairs about him. I chose not to have a hand in the latest scandal, but then this is like forcing me to do something.

So now, I don't care anymore. I'm going to convert this fully to a discussion forum.

F***.

Why is this my business to care?!

2005-08-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

So some people watch porn. And some particular somebody's got fetishes for something. Something I'm not even sure and am not too keen on finding out. I gotta admit, it's rather interesting to post things on my blog, and of course fun to make fun of people like that particular someone.

Thing is that, it's not really my business to care anymore. I've got better things to do than that. So why is it my business?

Anyway, it's rather interesting to know things like that. Shows that some pathetic idiots never change. I mean, it's not particularly wrong, but then it's because it's him. And so, I would like to conclude: When in hot soup, refrain from getting to boiling point.

I'm not even sure if it's boiling point. But for some people, I guess not. Imitation and denial is not going to get anyone anywhere, neither is the act of fishing in troubled waters nor backstabbing. I believe that as long as those things are around and found on that person, he would go beyond boiling point and start to smoke and vapourise, and eventually become part of the ozone layer to perish with the CFCs.

Well, I guess that might happen one day. Better hope it's sooner because it's an eyesore sometimes to see a beautiful picture being ruined by a piece of trash there. Which concludes another thing: A fingerprint on the pair of glasses really is a hassle.

Why do I say that? Arh, it blurs things and makes you feel uncomfortable. In addition to that, it sorta distorts your perspective and perception of certain things. Which would again lead to yet another interesting fact I would like to conclude: When vision is blurred, it's probable to lose sense of stability.

Of course, that is true. I mean who can maintain balance when one has a got a blurry perspactive of the land he's on? Of course not, right? I don't think anyone can do it without prior training to it.

Then again, I think there's no solution to that eyesore we see once in a while. That's cool, I guess. So, what do we do when we get our glasses blurred by fingerprints or miscellanous crap?

We clean them.

What to do?!

2005-08-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

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What to do?!

Yeah, right...

2005-07-05T01:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah, right... I don't practice what I preach. Who says 2 rights don't make a wrong? If it is 2 positive words, it's those 2. Because those 2 words are the only 2 words in the entire english language to mean entirely opposite things when put together.

If it is anything I so-called "preach", it is something I'm doing, or trying to apply in daily life. Well, that is unlike someone who constantly complain about how bad life is, when actually others are having even rougher times.

Like I said in my earlier entries, some people have too much time and money. People with too much time would come to see this blog on an everyday basis, and flood the tagboard at the right-hand side of this blog with nonsense.

Well, there are people like that in this world.. We must all live with that fact.

There are some people in this world who are empty shells, with nothing inside. I would call them "hollowheads". Why? There is absolutely nothing inside, just plain 'ol air. So much so that when something hits the individual on the head, a loud drum-like sound is heard. So now...

HOW IN THE WORLD DO THESE PEOPLE SURVIVE?!

Simple.

By imitating what others do. Since their heads are so hollow, anything could fit in there! It almost like a computer with high memory but low/no processing speed. Put it simply, it's just so darn f***ing stupid. So now, what does the memory hold? It holds all the infomation as to how people behave, and then the processor just takes the data and applies it. But then again, it is on a low-speed processor. Which means that the person does not apply things effectively. In fact, it simply fails.

Great. Now the term "hollowhead" is being understood. So now. Let's not be one and shun them when you see them.

Why do I have the guts to say all these in my blog?

Reason is simple.

Because those hollowheads don't understand what I am writing because they are so darn stupid. All they know how to do is to observe and copy, memorise and apply. They do not have any form of analysis simply because their processor's too slow and useless to analyse.

Tell you what they do that makes things scary. They take away your originality and corrupt it and make it look like you are the one who took away originality. They get so insensitive that they do not sense annoyance and dissatisfaction. They are so cheap that they would do anything to get their way, including the sins stated in the "Ten Commandments". They waste so much resources that there wouldn't be enough for your usage. They make you wait for nothing. Most of all, they simply piss you off.

What I know is of one particular hollowhead. He's been flooding my tagboard with garbage, imitating my behaviour, my writing, my language, my dressing, my way of speaking, my way of working, my life. He seems to be consuming my life away, and storing it into his system. And then he would apply them in the most idiotic and stupid ways.

Most of all, he keeps on reading this blog even thought it pisses him off whenever he reads it. He keeps writing insulting comments on my tagboard saying things like "nono of ur biz..." and blindly accusing me of things.

Most of all, that stupid email he sent was nothing but plain stupidity and complete waste of time. That email is a big joke. And oh, by the way, he tried to imitate my way of writing too, I noticed. And thank goodness it failed.

And what has he got to say for not eing a wimp? He's one himself, too. See how hypocritical he is? He's an oxymoronic hypocrite who has no idea what the shit he is doing.

And what's more? Like I said in my earlier entries also, blogs are meant to be private. He has invaded this privacy and has thus violated my peace.

And the reason he visits my blog? I deduce that it was due to the fact that he wants to start a blog himself, and he's looking at my blog for reference to imitate. F***er.

To him: "I know you are reading this. I know that you are the one who impersonated azy and refused to admit it and pushed everything to your friend. I know that you have been trying to imitate me, I can see it with my own eyes the way you do so. I noticed the way you observed me to see what I'm doing. I know everything about you. I know what you are feeling now. You act like this is a joke but in actual fact, you just want get back at me. I also know that you liked every single female person in class and you are a desperado. You just want all the girls, don't you? I know you just want to outdo everyone and would sulk and complain everytime someone does better than you. Army's just an excuse... You never really cared for it anyway. The fact that your 'ex-girfriend' died wasn't true, you had been lying through your teeth all along. It was just a way to attract attention anyway. The fact that you say that you are ugly and your suicidal schemes tell everyone that you just wanna attract attention. You are damn scared of loneliness and contempt, are you? You are just a 'siissy girl' who's terrified of being left alone.You chose to take the FI track because the girls are there. You didn't take the DE track because you were scared of being alone. You think you are just so cursed are you? Tell you something, there really is a curse around you. No... I should say that you are the curse. You are the walking curse that haunts everything you've ever touched, everyone you've ever met. All of us shun you and comdemn you for simple reasons such as: 'It's you'. That is also why your 'girlfriend' left you. It was for her own good, that is, if there was really a 'girlfriend' anyway. And the fact that you are gone makes us all so happy."

To add on, "I won't be seeing you anymore. F*** off. You are far worse than anyone I've ever met. You'll be alone all your life. And the more you fear it, the more it's going to come true. It sucks to be you because you made it shitty."

And I won't be saying "yeah, right..." to this.

Is this fun?

2005-06-27T13:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Why is it that whenever something goes wrong, one would blame others or something else for it happening before looking at oneself? This is especially true for somebody we know. All of us can't deny the fact that we, as humans, are guilty of that. When we realise it ourselves, we usually change to improve ourselves and to change the current situation for the better. That is, if we realise it though...

As for someone, I can only say that he's in the current position and situation on his own accord. Not because he intends to choose this path, but because of circumstances. But these circumstances were in fact created by himself. So, in conclusion, he's in this situation here due to the things he's done, and the decisions he's made.

I don't know about him, but I know that we, as human beings , all should know our limitations, be it physical or psychological. As human beings, we can only do so much, any more than that would have a negative effect.

Knowing all that, we can then live in the world and lead happy lives. But that does not end here. This is only a passport to healthy living, be it body or mind. The rest is entirely up to oneself. Having a balanced lifestyle doesn't neccessary mean that we have good social skills.

With good social skills, we can make more friends. Making friends does not end with just making friends. Making friends would mean to know somebody and to keep that special bond permanent. How so? Simple. By knowing limits.

Know what you can do, what you cannot. Know how much you can do, how much you cannot. Know why you can do, why you cannot. Know who you can do to, who you cannot. These are simple questions to ask oneself before even thinking of what to do next. It's as simple as 'who?', 'what?', 'where?', and 'how?'.

People say "ignorance is bliss", but in some cases, "ignorance is far from bliss". What you don't know can hurt, a lot. For example, if you don't ask yourself the 4 sacred questions mentioned above, you are bound to suffer for it. These are some of the things we all should know, just like we know how to walk and talk.

Life is not about striving to be number 1 or something. It is more about making full use of the time we have as a human being, as a child of God and a decendant of Adam and Eve. We are only human, we live only once. So why not make use of our time to enjoy ourselves, make more friends, and live a happy life. We don't need to toil like crazy for something non-existing, force our way through or something. We only do that when we have no other options. In this case, I think the time hasn't come yet.

At my time and this current age, I don't think I need to toil my life and suffer like somebody do. I'm happy to be like that.

So, now I ask. Why do some people do the opposite of what is mentioned above? Why do some people blame the whole world but themselves when things go wrong? Why do some people come up with stupid and illogical explanations so as to blame others for their mishaps?

So... I ask... Is it that fun to do so?

Guess what?

2005-06-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

Like I said in the earlier entries in my blog, some people just don't seem to grow up. Take a look at this:

I am not mailing this to you as a friend anymore. Let's say, it's something else other than a friend...ok? You should know what's foester is all about.. Just that you are my 2nd degree enemy

I am sure I am the guy whom you have mentioned in your blog as "inconsiderate, immature and insensible, dirty and perverted." Ya indeed! an asshole eh?

Ya, thinking of my past actions, it's rather true. to the fact that i am everything you said it is. As long as you believe it and have faith in me, rest assured I will still be what you mentioned it is.

I thnk that our relationship has been taken to a whole new level of complexity rather said "ruthless aggression!". U better be prepared for that!

I have seen you mention so many things about me. I am really surprised at how good your acting skills are, to be able to hide that immense hatred within you. Even when we are in the same project group.. Really sorry you got to be stucked with me at that time. But that's nt my point of admiration

Nevertheless,

Your principle of unoriginality is always my main point of admiration.... But I am not here to say my admirations.... Rather say, Would you want to be unoriginal and cut off ties with me for good? And stop writing about me in your blog? So sad if you do so, isn't?

Not even considering ties as enemies? An enemy for you to kick around like you did when you raped me in arcade in GGX? While you need one token to make me buy 50 tokens? That's entertainment. I guess not this time

Rest assured that I won't have enough time to create and write a counter blog everyday as complain letters to god. Cause he wouldn't even care....rite? Really, imagine how many lvls I can gain if use it to play game isn't?

I won't blame you, I can only blame myself I am damn sure i should be. But this doesn't mean I won't post tags to vandalise ur mature tagboard!

This doesn't mean I will help you and ease your hatred towards me This doesn't mean I am nt pissed off! Soon, I will have more annoying actions for you to write about....no matter how hard i try to be nice and be good... I supposed you will always write about any action I do that pisses you off rite?

IN fact any action I do pissed you off...

I am "not pissed off" or something like that. But, in public profile, for my public image. I should be pissed of isn't, I must at least show some response to prove I am human.

I do swear by the fact that the more pissed off I am the happier you will be. Therefore, "not pissed of" will come into action on me.

I am suffering hell in Novena. Really, it's hell. Either you are right or have you planted some curse on me. Damn you!!!

Thx to your curse that my gf broke up with me...damn you x2!! Get your facts right next time!!

Are you gonna write when the next time I go for a check up, I would get cancer?

But whatever it is.... My only insensible, immature and inconsiderate advice is hope that you will not work there. It sucks really. Can't you see I am giving you some updates so you can write more about me?

I have been reading your entries ever since but recently find that I am missing in the picture. It's like I am dead, but now that you mentioned it. It's like you are speaking out my thoughts I will come back to life amongst the smoke of the graveyard.....Rest In Peace... sucker!!

Your blog really need some entertainment and what is it? It's me of course... You need me to brighten up your entries. Make your entries long, so that in the long run it will benefit your english whenever descriptive language is concerned.

I have an ambition to write about my story. I can find no better person like you. To do so, to make my story as tragical as it can be. As hated as it can be.

The tag message Azy: U type like a sisssy.... is posted to you frm a fren of mine... I am damn sure he's as pissed off as I am

Well, that's what you call entertainment. And that's wat i call entertainment too...

So since you started it, let's continue the entertainment, so that more angry souls who have readed your piss spilling entry will come and piss me off!!

So pls carry on writing about me so that I can be the outlet for your anger? Stress? and whatever unlucky things that happen to your life. And you can become the outlet of my ambition...

If you think I would come up to your house and lay a smackdown right to your candy ass...forget it...

It won't happen for you mentioned it... You won't see me anymore. And i will see to it that it better be the fact...

Since you won't be seeing me anymore. I supposed this is the only way to keep in contact.

This nonsense is brought to you by...

the insensible, the inconsiderate, the immature, the dirty and the perverted one Last but not least, something you hate, the unoriginals... Thank you for reading this...(I am sure i don't need the mention the words again right?)

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You know something? I wanted to edit this so that the language used would be refined. Guess I can't be bothered with it, so I'm really going to leave it at this. Haha!

I know, I've gone too far, right? Yes, I have... Somebody's just pissed off and waiting to 'lay a smackdown right to my candy ass'. But hey, that doesn't change anything. I mean, one can do all sorts of things when enraged but in the end, things don't really change for the better, right?

Haha...

And regarding the message addressed to me, I don't have much to comment, but then again, I'd say one thing: "HAHA!!!"

But yeah, you can safely count on the fact that this will either piss you off or make you laugh as you read it. As for my case, I'm kinda amused. So it made me laugh. Haha.

And for some things that are meant to be already understood and should be written in a tutorials in case some people haven't really understand, it's that a blog is a blog.

Meaning of that? Guess I'd have to explain in detail for some who don't yet understand, and I hope this makes things clear. Get this in your head: "Blogs are meant for people to write about how they truly feel and are, in a way, a form of destress. It's almost like writing a diary, only thing is that people can read it. Also, the reason for people to know about a certain friend's blog is about trust, which in this case can be achieved through mutual understanding and agreement. Though unauthorised people still have the right to read blogs, they do not have the right to deface blogs, which in this case would either be classified under vandalism, hacking, or harassment. As said earlier, blogs are meant for people who share the same thinking and understanding to read, if a certain somebody who does not share this understanding, then there is no point in reading the blog."

Yes. And there is the privacy issue which I don't think will please somebody. Anyway, I would anticipate for something dramatic to happen soon, knowing somebody's temper. But rest assured, I believe nothing will happen to me.

Though I wanted to comment more, I guess I'll rest as fatigue kicks in.

So I'll see you guys around.

And oh, I almost forgot to tell a 'special' somebody something: "Thanks for the support you are giving me by reading my blog and spamming my tagboard! I don't know how to repay you. I guess I might when I figure out how!"

Oh yes, I wanted to name this entry "From Hell", but then that'll do nuts. Only somebody would understand anyway... It's far to retarded to do that. Anyway, "Hell" in this case has an acronym: "his Shithole". Yes, the title should have been "From his Shithole". Ok, I can't elaborate anymore... It's too childish already.. Hah!

Anyway, bye!

Back to good

2005-06-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

Back to good? Haha... Not really. Hah! Just realised that I haven't blogged for like a week or so... So now, I feel that I have to blog again!

Though I write, my mind is empty... Nothing great's happened last week, except that my Dear gotten so ill that she had to rest for the entire weekend. Poor thing... She's got lots of assignments to do... Glad I wasn't there, but then on the other hand sad that she has to go through all that crap.

Her lecture's crappy. Why? Reason being first of all, with it commencing in the evening, it's kinda a mental barrier already. Secondly, the lecturer's being an asshole. He likes to drag on his already draggy lesson. There was once he got stuck with a certain slide in a powerpoint presentation for 45 minutes. That's just sick. And what's more? He goes on to look at his list of students and attemps to ask everyone questions. That's great, isn't it? Yeah... Wait till you hear the rest. Thirdly, even though he's being so draggy, he still thinks he's ahead of the tutorials... The truth is that the tutorials are stuck because he was going too slowly. And lastly, he takes manual attendance, so there's no escape.

Woah. This really sucks. No skipping lessons, no sleeping, no daydreaming, not even looking away for more than 10 seconds. Sickening, ain't it? Top that all up with facts like it being a 2-hour lecture, and that there's no break in between. Also, skip two or more lectures and a warning letter's bound to fly to your doorstep.

Wonderful life.

Luckily for me, I don't have lectures like that. I actually went in twice. And each time I go in, I fall asleep instantly. It's almost as if the lecturer's emitting valium vapours. And I like the way he tries to get me to answer questions. He keeps trying and trying to call my name, but never seems to succeed. And I like the way he looks at me with those eyes when he asks questions. Hah! Yeap... There's one thing he doesn't know... It's so trivial but yet so irritating, that I'm not interested simply because I'm not his student!

Hah!! I love to do things like that.

Anyway, I went out with Salad today, hung around in bugis, then orchard. Along the way, he saw his friend, and I saw two of mine. Haha... First was N'sync and his ex-classmate. Hah... N'sync still hasn't changed... He's still the same as ever... Said 'hi' to each other and walked off... We had nothing to say anyway, not that we're hostile, just that we're not close.

Then there was Joey. Saw her with someone whom I thought was her boyfriend. Haha.. Talked a bit at the traffic junction, then walked off. Haha... Funny girl... Craziest one I've ever seen. Which reminds me... That 'guy' she was with wasn't a guy... It was a girl... Was her sister... Found that out just now... It was so... What's the word for it? Bah!!! I just thought that she has a new boyfriend on seeing that she's holding hands with someone who dresses like a guy... Haha... That's funny.

And oh... I just remembered... A friend of mine has got some relationship problems.... It appears that he is not very like by his girlfriend's family. Well, her family's aritocratic... So it's pretty common, but that doesn't mean it's right. It's just wrong... I mean, aristocrat or not, we're all humans... We're all God's children, equal to him in every aspect, saint or sinner... I mean, it's not really right to judge people by their qualification.

But anyway, the man I'm talking about, if you are reading this, take this from me: "I'm glad that you thought it out the optimistic way, and yeah, wait for her... I'm sure she'll be glad if you did. Continue to think that way, I'm sure it'll lessen her worries."

Hmm... Maybe I'm talking crap again.. But then again, I haven't heard the full story... I can only make assumptions based on what I heard. So if I said anything wrong, please fill me in.

And I just remembered something... Somebody'll be back from the dead soon. Haha.... You're right... It's that shithead asshole I talked about in my blog entries a few weeks ago! Yeah.... Lots of interesting things to see and hear again!!

Haha.. It's so funny.....

And oh, by the way, my glasses broke. Now I've got to make do and use my old outdated glasses. I hate to use that. So luckily, when I have to go out, whether to school or wherever, I have my contact lenses... Cool, eh?

Anyway, I've got to go now... If I don't go now, I'd probably talk some more trash...

So, yeah.... See'ya!!

The good, the bad, and the immature.

2005-06-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

Good things happen and so do bad things. Yes, add in a pinch of immaturity and that's basically my life. It's full of ups and downs, yes... It's full of crap too. Crap, for example, is the fact that the government is chasing me. What for? Of course, it's NS. Why? They're desperados, that's why.

Well, I would say that they're abusing the fact that they're the government. How so? They might take away my right to education. You know, as guys, we have to defer our NS so as to study. I took a detour and switched courses and thus wasted a year. When I do something like that, naturally I have to defer once more right? Yep, I did that. And guess what? The last time I checked, they told me that my deferment expires on the 8th of December. And then they tell me that I have to go for some stupid medical checkup in September. Cool? I think not! Because they told me later on that enlistment is 6 months following the checkup. And that is before my graduation! I just love the way the government does things... Furthermore, the stupid old woman told me that I cannot defer from NS anymore. So, you think life sucks now?

I've heard from my friends that NS has deprived some individuals of their rights to study. And I also heard that the service is going to extended from the shortened 2 years to a very long 3 years. Cool, I just hope that it doesn't happen to me.

And oh, by the way, if by any chance that really really horrible things happen to me, I'm going to have to publicise things. I'm going to write to the newspapers. But that is if my education gets deprived and that I get the 3-year NS. Well, any one will do. I simply hate it.

But then again, life tells me to be more optimistic. So, I'm going to be more optimistic and try my very best not to think about it. So I'm going to talk about happier stuff.

Well, yeah. My dear's birthday's just over and now we're of the same age!!! We're both 19!!! Yay! But that's not going to last very long, because my birthday's coming soon! Wheeh! Should I be glad? I guess I should be. Well, I'm turning 20. So I guess I should be more matured, right? Hmm.... I'm not too sure of that myself... Hah! Well, I'm a child at heart. Umm... In other words, child-like. God looks upon all of us as His children, be it who we are, or what we are. So, in His eyes, we are all very child-like.

But being child-like is not a bad thing at all! It is human-nature to be child-like. Child-like is when one is innocent and lovable. Being child-like is different from being childish. There is a world of difference between being child-like and being childish. Yes, there really is.

Being childish is being ignorant, uncaring, immature and stubborn.

I am child-like, not childish. I want to stay that way. That is what everybody should be. Anyway, enough of philosophies. I've digressed to far from my initial topic.

Yes, it's going to be my birthday soon, and I've already received some presents!! Here are some of the things I received:
A thumbdrive - given by my dear... So sweet!
A watch - given by my classmates, you know who you are!

Yeah, and I certainly hope that the list would increase, but I guess most likely not. Hah! And yes, not forgetting, I have to thank everyone for the presents.

THANK YOU!!!

And oh, not forgetting, I spent last saturday with my dear. We decided to celebrate it earlier because of the crappy timetable. Well, not so crappy, but it kills mood. Anyway, we went to have supper at Somerset. The food was great, and I loved it. I know she did too! It was a great day, even though we had to cancel the movie plan as the theatres are far too crowded. And then I sent her home after a stroll around Orchard. Nice day, but not nice time to be out. She gotten tired while taking the stroll, so we had to go home. Anyway, I was quite tired too. We were both murdered by the schoolweek. Well, except for the stupid Bengster who stared at me on the bus, I guess I love that day. Yeah, it was great.

And so, here I am, at home, getting ready to sleep once my hair is no longer moist. And yeah, I'll remember to be happy, even though I'm ill (my life-long illness, heavy coughing) again...

I'll be sure to take my medication!

Take care everybody!!

Boring, yet at the same time, interesting.

2005-06-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

It's always amusing to know that the world was created to be boring and yet at the same time interesting. Yes. Boring yet interesting. At least most of the things I experienced were like that. Well, horrible experiences are mostly bittersweet, as in it's bitter when you first encounter it, but then when it's over, you find it sweet. What do I mean by this? Simple. For example, when you are suffering, you find it tormenting, but then once you are over it, you can think about it and laugh. Yes, that's the way it's supposed to be...

But then again, what's that to do with my life? Hah! It's got more to do with my life than anything. In fact, it's got everything to do with everyone's lives. But then again, that's everyone else's affairs which I would have absolutely no right to meddle with. Anyway, since I can't really relate to other people's experiences because I never experienced what they experienced, I'm going to relate what happened recently.

Hah! As one would have thought. Digital Entertainment is nothing more than a fanciful name to even more programming, thinking, and even more things to remember. Well, at least it's fun. Especially the programming part. I find that the programming part is difficult, but fun. It's like, even though it's hard to do, the results would always boost the spirits to a higher level, meaning that one can get a sense of achievement just by programming things from this specialisation track. Whooh! That's interesting, isn't it?

And oh, the lecturers are interesting. Well, more interesting than my first and second year ones actually... But nevertheless, still pretty interesting. First off, there's Mr Benedict The. He's a nice guy, but then again, he can be quite serious at time. We had a little conflict with him, but then at the end of the day, he still helped us a lot. Secondly, there's Mr Tan Wee Juan. Though his speeches always put most of us to sleep, he's unescapedly a helpful lecturer. And then, we have Mr Liaw Chun Huei. His lessons are very hasty and so they end early, a manifestation of his personality, I guess... There's also Mr Yip, he goes straight to the point, no delays. And then there is Mr Allan Simonsen. He's a wonderful lecturer, awfully friendly, helpful, rather humourous, and I think he's Aussie. Well, that's judging by his accent.

Anyway, the lessons are really fun and interesting, compared to the ones of the Financial Informatics track. Their lessons are all about banking, security, and things like that. Basically, just "plain ol' borin' stuff". I can be very sure I'll fall asleep in every one of the lessons, lab, tutorial and lectures alike.

I heard about Mobile track. I think it's pretty interesting. In fact, I think it's quite useful to learn about things to do with mobile devices and mobile services. There are always phone companies and service providers that would employ.

And lastly, the Bio-informatics track. Even though I might have the interest, the moment I heard about the vacancies, I gave up. Not much is known aboutthe course to me, though. So I can't really say much.

Oops! I think I digressed too much. It's too off-topic. Haha... Anyway, those were the things I encountered so far. There are challenges ahead of me. That's for sure.

Enough with that, let's talk about some of the other things happening right now.

It's very saddening to know that the government is doing nuts. Like for example, the MIW system is all screwed up. I received letters every now and then, and each one brings me closer to army. The latest one stated that I have to go for medical checkup. And also, enlistment would be 6 months prior to the checkup. So now I think I'm screwed.

MinDef is very obviously tring to sabotage me and my life. I don't want to have to stop studying to go to the army. It stinks. Really just stinks. I have friends who have graduated, and some of them have not even received any letter of any sort. F***. You see, the government is trying it's best to create problems for me. Like the army slogan said, "Compromise is not and option", there's no way I'm going to compromise. I won't give up my studies for something as stupid as NS. No way! Absolutely out of the question!

Army is a bitter experience. It has not become sweet because I'm not done with it yet. I'm just about to experience it. I don't mind going in, I don't really mind if I'm wasting my time in there... But even if I don't mind, I don't want it to come so quickly and suddenly... It would really suck if I'm going NS halfway through my studies. I'm going to try all sorts of ways to prevent that.

And those who are being haunted by the letters by MIW, beware.... NS lurks...

BAH!!! F*** it! I'm depressed and tired enough... I think I'll go sleep right now.

Good night, and enjoy your nightmares!

Holes

2005-06-02T14:13:00.000+08:00

Holes in my timetable. Big gaps here and there. Boring. Extremely boring. Well, not as boring as what's to come after this academic semester, but clearly boring. Within this boredom, I guess there's something interesting. Probably.

Perhaps there's one. But then again, I mentioned it in the previous entry a few days ago. Indeed f***ed up. But then, it interests me even now. Amazing, isn't it? This is really fun. I think what I said earlier about this weird personality is true, and it's becoming even worse.

His situation is getting from bad to worse, whereas in my case, from good to better. Not exactly from good to better, but then from interesting to more interesting. From funny, to funnier. Wheeh! And he can't leave anymore messages in my tagboard because I did something to further piss him off.

Talk about imposters, talk about idiots, talk about insensitive jokers who can't realise things. Truthfully speaking, all these talks have become sour. I've become bored. But then again, it's become more and more interesting, more and more funny and most of all, more and more amusing.

Why?

Hahahahahaha!!! That's the reason. Yes, it's rubbish, but in time, comprehension would be eventual. For those who comprehend, great! For those who don't, don't ponder about it, it'll drive you to insanity.

Insanity? Might not be, but then something close. Hah. I've gotten too crappy. Hah! As I write, I'm pretty much sure that some illiterates are cursing. Whatever... I don't believe in curses. They never work. I've been cursed by people around me most of the time. So, cursing won't work on me. In fact, they don't work.

But what I think would work would be some confrontation of some sort. Well, unless somebody prefers to hide in the turtle shell. Well, that is all for now. I guess I'll delete this entry. Maybe not. I'll rewrite when my mind is more clear. Right now, it's in a big mess.

Have fun people!

Fun for the entire family

2005-05-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

Not exactly fun, since it's my first day of school. It's rather f***ed up. Ended up alone in a new class of people, with maybe a few of those people from the next class. Hah! Friendly people they are.

Yeap, school's as screwed up as I guessed. Never mind, I've already perceived long ago that it's going to be this way forever. Well, not really forever, but then until they decide to make an effort to improve it. But I'm not really in the power to have a say in that. I can only comment on it.

I'm quite over the timetable thing, well for some reason I've found ways to overcome the trash. Well, in my own little way, I guess. Hah! Time has come for me to move on to my final year. I'm just glad to have made it this far. It's a nice feeling to have when you see the '05 cohort come in, walking around titanic groups of 16-20. To me, it just brings back some memories, some good some bad.

Let's not really talk about that. I know for certain that they'll turn out like us, now walking in small groups of maybe 3-4? Hmm... Anyway, that's just how things change. In a way, it's beautiful, in a sense that we're all grown up, except for some people out there who are forever immature, insensitive, insensible, etc... Too many words to carry on. Bah.. Who cares?!

Taking us back to the topic, I guess we're all grown up and have in a way or another have become more or less independent. We're not exactly like ourselves from the time of our freshman year. To add on, most of us are now matured enough to, in a way, take care of ourselves. That alone is beautiful enough for me. Well, I think not just me, I think the most happy would be our course coordinator, Ms Yarny. Yes.. She is very happy to see us like this.

Anyway, crappy stuff aside, today's my first day of school. When I woke up today, I tried to, in a way, bluff myself that it's the 23rd of May, and not the 30th. But then again, reality kicks me in the balls and tell me it's the 30th. So I started packing my stuff and did something I haven't done in nearly a month: take a bus to the school early in the morn.

So I guess it's no more late night life, no more havoc, no more inversion in my life. Well, it should be good for me right? Maybe.. But I sure miss it. I'm going to miss it till the day I graduate. Then there's the army to worry about. Crapped up life. I just wanna laze around doing nothing, minding my own business. Ok, I think that's enough.

Anyway, today was rather routine. The kind of things you see everyday in a timetable. Holy crap. Hah. I'll try my best to adapt to it. It should be wonderful if I did right? So I'll try.

Ok, enough talk, I'm drifting off to slumberland. You're losing me....

Gone!

Somebody's pissed!

2005-05-30T11:53:00.000+08:00

Yes! Somebody's pissed! Apparently he left an insult in my tagboard. Haha!! Some of the things only idiots and cowards and true 'siissys' would do. Haha!!

'Siissy'.

Hahaha!!! I like that. To add on, I know who it was. Haha. Just some loser whose name I've forgotten. What was it? I really forgotten. Only remembered that I have written about him in my previous blog entries. Hahaha.... This is so interesting. Even I amuse myself.

So, how did this come about? It came about because of the links in my blog and my friends' blogs. Apparently, this friend of mine has my links on her blog. And then the loser somehow gotten hold of the link. Well then so naturally, he sees my link and then curiously goes in to see things to piss him off. Didn't they say things like "curiousity kills the cat"? Or things like "Don't see what's not meant to be seen"?

Well, he's now seen some very supernatural things - this blog. If it is being stumbled upon, it's accident. But if it is being searched out, hahaha.. He's asking for it. He's obviously asked for it. He's constantly looking for it. So fun.

Right now I think he's going to view my blog every now and then to check for even more annoying things. Yes! He's going to annoy himself even more. And yes, we're going to see more of 'Azy: you type like a girl...' followed by 'Azy: a very siissy girl...'.

Ooh.. So fun.

Well, that's entertainment.

Oh by the way, today's my first day of school. And it so happens that I'm quite alone in my new class and I have my shitty timetable. I'm kinda over it now... So I'm not so pissed off right now.

I'll right about it later on, or maybe even tomorrow if I've gotten too tired. Ok, it's time for me to go... As you would have guessed, I'm in lab now...

Bye!

A thousand damnations

2005-05-28T09:43:00.000+08:00

Damn! My timetable's screwed. I've got two-hour-breaks all over the place, and my fridays have just gotten screwed. I hate my timetable!!! ARGH!!!

Life would be damn bored.

And that's addition to my being sick since tuesday.

Screwed. This is what I get. The timetable sucks.

I hate this.

Life of boredom

2005-05-19T18:56:00.000+08:00

Today's topic. The life of boredom. Put it simply, the boring life. Why so boring? Because of all the stupid things that happened this and last week. It's gotten me to be rather pissed. Why? Because of some stupid things people choose to do.

For example, take last friday, or was it thursday. I forgot. Anyway, it was on that day. I went out with Jocelyn's friends to play badminton. Naturally, the group would consist mostly of girls. Actually, I was kinda expecting to see like four girls and that's it. But then, some unwelcomed character came in to spoil the all-female environment. In other words, came in to spoil their fun. Indeed, he did. I was there too.

In case you wonder why I'm there, I'm there because of the odd one out. I can't let him have four girls all to himself, can I? So, the only way is to go there t spoil his fun, since he wasn't expecting someone like me to be there. my sole purpose for being there is to spoil his fun completely. Certainly hoped I did. On seeing me, I think his mood changed. Since no one told him of my attendance.

Anyway, we started playing at some sepaktakraw court that was mistaken by most people to be a badminton court. The games appeared to be fun until somebody came in. Yes, him. He started showing off his strength by smacking at every single chance he's gotten. Yes, all to show off his strength, and so called dexterity and skill. Ask me and I'll say that it's all show. Naturally, I've seen better players and I think most people would have.

So why in the world would he want to show off? I won't be impressed, the girls are obviously not impressed, onlookers are most likely not to be impressed, and it wasn't impressive at all to begin with. And he said things like "I haven't been playing for years!" and "Come, I challenge you.". Haven't been playing for years, right? Hah! That's crap. That doesn't give one the authority and position to start smacking at everybody's faces using shuttlecock with every single chance he's got! And about the challenging part, it's just plain nonsense. I remember him challenging me to a game of 'King of Fighters' a few months ago. He ran away when he heard what I could do.
Coward.

Well, what do you call it? It's called 'attempt of bully'. Why? He thinks he can win me at that. That's why he challenges me. He underestimates everyone but himself. He's full of himself, to put things simply. I still remember how he boasted about being able to beat me and such. That's all crap. Now he's cowering at the mention of 'King of Fighters'. I've been using that to hit him recently. And funny thing is that when I want to get him out to play the video game, he doesn't have time. But then when the girls just mention to him that they're going out, he pops out in front of them almost immediately. That's like, err....... Simply asshole-like.

It's natural sometimes that some guys treat girls better than other guys. Yes. but then you don't have to make it so damn friggin' obvious such as this. I understand the fact that you don't like me, because maybe you do have something against me. You're angry because I happen to be the boyfriend of the girl you used to have infactuation with. So? What are you trying to prove? That you're much better than I am? Please, I'm a person of vast greatness and what are you? So top trying to compare yourself to me.

Also, the game of badminton turned somewhat ugly. He started smacking everybody. I got smacked on my wrist and once almost in my face. Luckily I dodged. Jocelyn's gotten one on her knee. I swear if that happened to her one more time, I'd go right there and bloody him. I'm sure he's looking for a fight. I'll be glad to grant him that wish. But circumstances just stopped me. I mustn't be rash.

Anyway, my mood improved when I started making fun of some of the girls. And joined in some of their conversations here and there. But the thing that really cheered me was that satisfying feeling of successfully spoiling someone's day. That's exceptionally pleasing when the person you piss of is one that you don't like. Yes, that was it. It was beautifully done. Instead of him interacting with the girls, I became the one. And all those just to piss him off. Yep.

And another thing before I move on. The game was supposed to be friendly. There was a time when I played with him alone. I got smacked everytime I served the shuttlecock. Yes, every single time. There was one particular time when I tried to shoot the shuttlecock at him and the racquet got so slippery that it flew out of my hand and flung itself at him. Well, now I'm wishing that it hit him. But then again, glad it didn't.

Well, that's it for the disgusting people section. Hope I can continue to piss him off again and again, time after time. It's just fun to do so.

Back to the topic, the life of boredom. Yes, my life's getting more and more boring. Well, one thing's that school's starting soon. I'm left with eleven days. That's very sad. I can't laze around anymore.................... And once school starts, I have to mad-struggle just to pass again. Phuey!! Just so simply sucks. Which also reminds me that I'll be all alone in class. ARH~! The life of solitude again. I just hope that my fate would change and good luck would come flowing in on me. Because all I've been encountering since after my 'O' Levels are bad luck and even more bad luck. It's a vicious cycle. The people I meet, most of which being blooming idiots, and the fact that I have to be involved with them. These people, some of them you know who and some maybe not.

Again, I pray for good fortune, because I really am very very jinxed. It's not like I'm complaining unreasonably, just that there are things other people do without problems and then when I do them, all the problems just start gushing out. It's also because of the fact that people can just get through obstacles easily and effortlessly without prior preparations and that I can't. It's just seems so unfair to me. It's like no matter how much I try, I can't do anything to make up for it. That really despairs me, sometimes just pisses me off. I guess complaining about luck is useless, it's not like anyone can do anything about it. It's just that the heavens are toying with me. I can't go against that. The last time I heard someone going against that, he died a horrible death. That sucked.

Being the jinxed one is also a very tiring job. It comprises to giving everybody else your luck, with nothing left to yourself. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. 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Is it neccessary that I be so jinxed? Can I not be for a change? I guess not. Thanks, cruel fate.

Sitting at home with nothing better to do

2005-05-12T17:54:00.000+08:00

I was sitting there in my favourite blue swivel chair, staring blankly at my computer screen. And then this idea struck me. Next thing I knew I was writing this entry for my blog. Yep. The things one would do when he's got nothing better to do. And since I've got nothing better to do, I think I'll be writing this entry. Just for fun, since there aren't any interesting things happening in my life now, except for perhaps the fact that it's my term break and I managed to clear all my modules and going on to the next semester without any worries. I still want to enjoy his term break, though I'm only left with like two weeks.

Anyway, though I was rather disappointed at my results, I found ways to cheer myself up. Well, at the very least I made some improvements and most importantly have passed all the modules and made it to final year. I don't wanna be the kind of people who would complain so much about not getting lots of As in the results slip. I never had As in mine anyway. Who cares? I just want to pass every single thing and be happy about it. But then again on the other hand, I'll try to aim higher. I have to admit getting into the wrong course, but then again, I chose it myself. So I have to work with the stupid system, no matter how ridiculously stupid and inflexible it is.

Which reminds me. I'm getting into Digital Entertainment for my specialisation. Should I be glad? I'm not too sure. But it's the only course for me. I mean specialisation. Since it's teaching things like games-design, computer-graphics, animation, and other related barang-barangs. I'm glad that I followed my mentor's advice and took C++ for my electives last year. If not I wouldn't have this slight advantage in this specialisation. Which reminds me of a certain friend who changed his mind about taking this specialisation because of that. Anyway, these things aside, I'm glad I got into DE. I love animation. I used to finish projects that normally took students one whole week in 3 hours. I hope it's the same in this case.

Well, I hope this new semester would bring me some form of new hope. My GPA's very very low. I barely made it. And I hope that it'll increase in this coming semester. About attachment, I can't care less about that. I'll worry about it next semester.

Anyway, been back to school yesterday to visit some friends. Yep. They're having a 'great' time in FYPJ. Anyway, I noticed some changes in them. Especially Suling. Her appearance has changed drastically from a 'tomboyish schoolgirl-looking' image to a more mature image. Makes her look more 'woman' than 'tomboy'. Haha. She changed her hairstyle and started wearing skirts. Now she looks better. Even I didn't recognise her. I bet Vince is smiling.

Haha.

And I even saw that irritating a**hole. He was wearing a disgusting red shirt. Not just any shirt, a formal one. And he was talking to 2 guys. Honestly speaking, I could tell the reluctance of the 2 guys when talking to him. It just seemed against their will to do so. Anyway, that a**hole was making lots of funny gestures, talking relatively loudly, talking senseless things, and being totally insensitive. Not that people choose to boycott him, it's his personality that's boycotting him. Even I, his so-called 'closest friend in Poly', couldn't stand him. Why? Because he did build his happiness on my sorrow when I was down. Friends would not do that. We all swear by that. And the sadder I was, the happier he was. That's the limit. He's one selfish, scheming, insensitive, perverted and sadisitc(yes, sadistic) a**hole. He's commiting the sins mentioned in the ten commandments, except that his sins didn't stop at ten.

That's horrible. And I used to trust him. Apparently he abused it and misused it to a certain extent that even I had become a victim. Bastard.

Speaking of him is dulling the mood. I should stop. On to another topic.

I have to change my own image. I look too sloppy. If I'm going to try to improve my grades, I'd better start with my looks. I can't excell looking so newspaper-like. I feel like styling up my hair, and going shopping for new clothes. Uh... Only thing is that I have some financial problems at hand now. So I can't really get those things done.

I've been going back to taking my Tae Kwon Do lessons, since I've been missing out so much. I've missed like 3 gradings? Anyway, this time I'm going to get my black belt. Kickass, right? I also think so. But the grading's $60. Like I said earlier, I'm having some financial problems. I think I'll figure this out by the end of June. I certainly hope so.

Anyway, I'm so bored now!!! Arh! But I'd rather be bored now than bored in FYPJ or attachment. Hahahaha... Ok, I'm going to get punched. Haha. Anyway, it's time for me to go now. Gonna go look for something to do. Haha.

See ya!

Some very annoying things.

2005-05-04T03:24:00.000+08:00

Well, the time has come for me to blog again. What should I write? Yeah, the title. It's been taken care of. Yeah. Some very annoying things. Why annoying? Well, annoying as in if I were in one of my violent moods, I would've done something... err... You know. Speaking of which, I shall share with you people.

Today, or rather yesterday evening since it's way past midnight, I went to have dinner with Jocelyn at Bedok. The dinner was great, I mean the great food and such, things you find in a hawker centre, basically. Then, it was time to get drinks. Well, we felt like getting fruit juices. So naturally, I went to the fruit stall to get 'em.

On my way there, I saw this lady attempting to cut queue and order. The store-owner refused to serve her but then kindly asked the lady to queue up first, as there was a crowd. So, knowing that that is the rule everyone must obey, she reluctantly walked towards the end of the queue. At this time, I was looking for the end of the queue. Then she stood beside the guy I was standing next to. Well, you can roughly know how it feels, like somebody cut queue unsuccessfully and then the next best thing she could do was to form another line. Which I found rather annoying. And so, being the not-so-aggressive person, I gave in and lined up behind her, with some reluctance. I was very thirsty from the food I ate, which was partially spicy; and then I had to give in because I was being a gentleman.

So now, I'm over the cutting of queues. Next thing that happened. It was time to order. She ordered a whole truckful of fruit juice. Well, not a whole truckful, just a metaphor I cooked up. But then she ordered like many many different kinds of fruit juices, with each kind at about 2 cups? Well now, being the person standing behind her in the queue, would it be wrong to be very very annoyed? This is especially when one is thirsty, with the chilli still lingering in the mouth, and gotten his place in the queue stolen from him. Anyway, yeah, that's the case and I guess I'll move on to say what happened next.

Guess it'll be easier if I'd tell the rest of the story in dialogues.

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The store-owner asked the lady for her orders in a very gentle manner, "So what do you want?". And then the lady replied, "One cup of watermelon juice, two cups of sugar cane juice, three pieces of ........ blah blah blah....".

So the store-owner repeated her orders, "So it's one cup of watermelon juice, two cups of sugar cane juice, three pieces of ........ blah blah blah....". And then the lady just went, "Yes, that is correct." as if she's teaching some kid of some sort something. That I found to be rather annoying. But then again, there ARE people like that who think they're some sort of genius or some sort of a sage or a lord, or even THE KING OF THE WORLD!

Anyway, the store-owner turned to me and asked me of my order in the same fashion she used previously. And so I told her, "One cup of watermelon juice and one cup of sugar cane juice". With that, she went inside to start working.

As the store-owner was working, I couldn't help but notice a man and a little girl approach. At first I thought that they were new customers as they stood behind me. Then to my expectations, they were that stupid lady's husband and daughter. The man then turned around to open the fridge sliding door. Not to take anything, just stare at what's inside. And then he asked his daughter, "Ah girl, you want agar agar?".

The girl nodded her head and started taking the agar agar out of the fridge. She put a piece of jelly into one plastic bag with her hand, and then another. So, she took two. The husband told her, "I'll pay for them later.", which gave me a sense of relief.

Then to my agony, she said that she'll tell the store-owner. This would very much slow down the time and delay my attainment of my drinks. I was rather irritated at that, because at that point of time I was thirsty and still had some spiciness lingering around in my mouth. And thn I decided to cancel my order, knowing that it'll take ages to get my drinks. So as I turned to tell the the store-owner that I wanted to cancel my order, she came out with two cups of fruit juice that resembled my order. And then, with a hand stretched out towards me, she told me, "That'll be $3.".

As I pass to her my $10 note, the stupid lady went like, "Weren't those supposed to be MY juices?".

The store-owner just kept quiet and went inside to take the change out. And then the lady pulled out her plump hand and attempted to stop me from collecting my cups. She actually put her hands onto the cups. And then, she said something very very infuriating: "Weren't you supposed to be behind me? These are MY juices. Wait around for YOUR juices, boy.".

At that point of time, I was thinking to myself this: 'That was freaking irritating. One more irritating phrase from her and I swear I would pull out my fists and bash her in the nose, I won't stop till I see blood, lots of them.'.

That was how irritating that was. But then again, I'm a student of Tae Kwon Do. I can't just bloody people up like that. I'll get double the penalty, plus black-listing, which apparently means that I would have to end my Tae Kwon Do career. And so, that stopped me.

But that alone wasn't enough to stop me completely. It was the fact that the store-owner came out with my change and told the lady that her order was coming up. The lady, angry now, exclaimed, "THAT WAS MY ORDER!! HOW COULD HE TAKE THAT JUST LIKE THAT?! I CAME AND ORDERED FIRST!!!".

The store-owner was shocked and tried to explain to her, "Sorry, but I decided to take his order first because yours was too much. His order was simpler and so I worked on his first." in an apologetic fashion.

The lady, now very very dissatisfied, said in a very demanding way, "I don't care, I want my juices and I want them now! And I want that watermelon juice!".

Apparently, the watermelon juice in my hand used to be the last piece of watermelon in the fridge. So I guess it's not very possible to have another watermelon juice. And so, the store-owner told her, "There's no more watermelon! I'm sorry but I have to replace it with something else. I'm very sorry! I'll even charge you half price.".

"FORGET IT!!! I DON'T WANT YOUR STINKIN' JUICE ANYMORE. I NEVER GOTTEN THIS WHEN I ORDERED FROM YOUR HUSBAND! I'LL NEVER ORDER FROM YOU AGAIN!" came the response. That HURT. A LOT. So much so that the store-owner gotten angry.

"THEN DON'T ORDER!"

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The rest, I didn't hear. I had walked away. But I was thinking then that that was freaking unfair. I was afraid of one more thing. And that was whether one day I'll become like that stupid lady. I don't know. But it's just so bleeding annoying, those people who are so demanding that even simple things such as ordering fruit juice would matter to them.

What disturbed me was that the way the store-owner was working the way she was supposed to be. She wasn't wrong. I mean, you know the rest...

I'd say that life's unfair. It gets so annoying sometimes that you just feel like grabbing and tossing somebody out the window, which I felt like doing sometimes.

Anyway, enough with that, and move on. Dinner was great, nevertheless.

Another thing I heard. Which is quite annoying to me, but then since I've gotten used to it, it doesn't bother me that much. What is it? It's the fact that that stupid son of a b**** is imitating my style again!

Aww... that's bad, very very bad. I mean, he's imitating my image and then making it his own. I heard that he's wearing a red long-sleeved shirt to work. That's really one of the things I would do. And also, he's been blasting out techno music from his MP3 player. Those are apparently my style, just that I don't ever blast out music for everyone to hear. Because I know it's irritating and inconsiderate. He apparently doesn't know. So.....

HE'S A COPYCAT WHO'S INCONSIDERATE AND INSENSITIVE. I'm just annoyed at that. That's all. I mean, he's also unhygienic. I know that he picks his nose and also digs his butthole, and sometimes when veggies get stuck between his teeth, he picks them too. What if, he does these at this sequence: DIG ASSHOLE, PICK NOSE, PICK OUT VEGGIES STUCK BETWEEN TEETH.

How's that? Sickening? Nah, not sickening enough. It's more sickening know the fact that he touch our stuff and sometimes us and our clothes. It becomes even more sickening if he ever goes to your place. I won't go into the details now, perhaps some other time. But hey, feel free to ask me.

Anyway, I heard that some girl in his attachment company had gotten her laptop's LCD screen touched by the unclean hand. Ewww..... That must've sucked! And I also heard that some very unlucky girl met with a very unfortunate turn of events. (I know, sounds like the movie...)

I heard that she had been transferred over to the same branch the bastard was being transferred to. That is somewhere in Novena. Yet another Ulu-land. I also heard that she was the one who's got the guts and (though I wouldn't say) balls to scold that insensitive pig. So, I kinda admire her, but also empathise with her her pain and unwillingness. Because I'd been there before. Not the scolding part, but the fact that I was stuck with him a couple of times.

Anyway, that sucks.

So it's time I went to sleep. Well, so long. I'm gonna have a good sleep. My sis and dad are waking up soon. It's 5.25am now. So, goodnight!!!

Nightlight

2005-04-28T04:04:00.000+08:00

Why nightlight? Well, it is due to the fact that I'm currently living in the night. I'm practically some sort of a nocturnal person right now. Not that I have work to do, but it's just that I have absolutely nothing to do. Which is why I'm writing this right now. Arh... I'm talking crap again, which is very normal for me simply because I'm kinda a crappy person. That's not normal. Or is it? I don't care. Anyway, having said all that, I have to explain why today's topic is the word, "nightlight".

Is there supposed to be light at night? Err... As far as I know, the only lights around at night are probably the street-lamps, the moon and sometimes the stars. Yes I know, I'm full of crap, so tell me something new other than that. Anyway, the word "nightlight"refers to me having my day at night. Simple. Derived from the word "daylight". Change it a little in my own little way and Eureka! Hehe.. And so, we have the word "nightlight". By the way, if you haven't noticed, I'm writing crap.

That's because my life now is so topsy-turvy that I'm doing things like this. I sleep in the day and come out at night. I eat my breakfast in the evening. I have my lunch in the middle of the night. I have my dinner........ Nope, no dinner. Same goes for supper. Hehehehehehehehe..... I'm so full of it.

This is a big issue! How can I be like this?! I can't be seen like this! Arh! What's happening to my life? I'm becoming so... So... What's that word? Bah! Forget it.

In case you are wondering why my life is so umm.... What's that word? Never mind. Reason is IT'S MY SEMESTRAL BREAK!!! Sorry to those people in attachment and FYPJ who are reading this and are balling up their fists right now... Hehe...

I can't believe I just wrote that. That was very inconsiderate of me! Sorry HJ, sorry SL, sorry Jeremy, sorry GW, sorry Azy, sorry err.... Who else? That's rather besides the point already isn't it? Hehe.

Seems to me that I have to re-write this entry in my blog. But then again, I'd rather not. Simple reason. I'M JUST TOO F***ING LAZY!!! Don't you guys know me? It's not the first day you guys have known me, isn't it? And for those who perhaps by some chance know me for like less than 24hours, yeah. Now you know.

Well, anyway, I have decided to make myself a resolution. I must wake up and live my life in the day and have some of the additional time to roam around at night. Yes. That leaves the rest to Slumberland.

And I shall do it! Right now! I'm going to sleep!

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Oh! Good morning! I guess I fell asleep on my keyboard! Wait a second... It's not day! It's still in the middle of the night! Shucks!

Anyway, I'm really going to sleep now. For those people who are in FYPJ or attachment, good luck! Don't hit me!

Good morning! Err... Night.

No Updates?

2005-04-15T04:15:00.000+08:00

No updates? Arh, I see... I've been neglecting this blog for quite some time. Hehe.... Sorry 'bout that, for those of you who are anticipating my updates. Anyway, I've gotten rather pissed with this joker, or rather, I got really amused with how this particular joker works. Well, I probably shouldn't call him a joker, since that's what I would sometimes call myself. I shouldn't put him together with myself. Help me think of a word to call him please, those who know the hell who I'm babbling on about.

Anyway, I've gotten rather pissed at how that particular person handles his stuff. For example, lying to others about not studying, which in actual fact is not true; he is studying. And for all the times when he copied my style of expressing myself, for example, my grammar, my vocabulary, my accent, my expressions, things like that. I mean, I don't need to see another 'me'. I already am me. So, I find his actions rather annoying, or now, rather amusing. I betcha right now he's probably writing something, probably a paragraph of something, like err.... A suicide note? A 'love letter'? (Notice the way I put inverted commas? Guess you'll know what I mean. Hehe...) Some poem depicting how the world is treating him unfairly? Or probably some diary entry that acts as a form of a complain letter to the Creator.

Whatever it is, I can't stand the way he writes. Especially the way he tries to copy or mimic my style of writing! Well, these things get to me. And that's not it too! Let me ask you people a question. Do you think that watches should be worn on the right hand? Well, answer that question, and think... Even though I'm an exception, I can't stand people who switch from wearing watches on left hand, to wearing them on the right hand. Come on, face it. It's not convenient, especially if you are right-handed, which in this case, most people are. Though I'm not right-handed, I kinda understand how the watch gets in the way. So, the person who changed wearing watches on left hand to right hand, is a moron in some way. Not to mention the fact that the moron in this case happens to be the one who's been imitating my style of writing and expressing.

Since I'm such a nice person, I won't persue those matters anymore. But the thing that annoys me the most is that the moron is trying to imitate my egoistic ways. For example, putting this on MSN: "No failures can stop a genius with hard work!". First things first, ask this question: "Do geniuses need hard work?". Next, ask another question: "Do geniuses encounter failures in the field of their excellence at all?". Next, ask this: "Why the F*** is that son of a b**** trying to mimic someone else? Hasn't he any sense of originality? What the F*** is that? Can't even imitate correctly! Has he no F***ing brains or something? Does he even do anything right without copying? Does he even do anything right?".

Enough of that. But before I go on to the next topic, I'll tell you another thing. This moronic son of a b**** has been giving me cold shoulders. Yeap, you can say I'm very happy about it. HAHAHAHAHA!!! But hey, he's been causing inconveniece everywhere. For example, playing the role of a street-lamp, playing lackey, playing the role of a dog, playing dominatrix, playing tracking device, things like that. I shall not elaborate on that. It's far too annoying.

Anyway, one more thing to add on to. I probably said this before, but he memorises text. You know how I feel about people like that! So, F*** that.

On to the next topic. Yippee!!! Exam's over!!! Yippee!!! I'm free!!! I'm free as the wind! Yahoo!!! Anyway, I love this feeling. Finally getting away from school, lazing around everyday, going out with my girlfriend, sleeping at least ten hours each day, things like that. Yay!!! Most of all, I don't get to see that moronic son of a b**** for a month! Haha!!! How's that for a change? Haha!!! I guess I won't be seeing him till graduation!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Well, that's a change, a great and majestic one. That's for sure! As the Japanese would say, BANZAI!!!(10,000 years old, which means 'long live'.) Hahahahahaha... You can taste my happiness.

But besides happiness, I have other feelings. I'm worried about the results, and I'm thinking about the future. As this semester ends, the day of my enlistment into National Service draws nearer. As I write on, a friend of mine's going in. That's like so sad? Yeap, it is. Soon, my other friends would be on the way in too. Anyway, it's not a time to worry about that. Hope I can get over this hurdle.

Yeap, so that's about it! And I wish those who are reading this and having school holidays a happy holiday. Other than that, there's not much I can say right now, since I haven't thought of anything. Haha.... Until my next update, see ya!

Anxiety

2005-03-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

Exams are around the corner! I'm supposed to be worried in some way, right? Guess I'm not. But then again, for every left hand, there's a right hand. So, on the other hand, I am worried in my own way. Well, in what sort of ways? Answer is clear. I don't want to be just a "Pass" student. I mean, I want to stand out in some sorta ways. Not that I want to have attention, but I just want something unique on my diploma, or maybe some special qualifications no one else has. Something like that. That's why I'm not satisfied with just a "Pass", you get what I mean?

Anyway, since the exams are round the corner, I guess I should be studying. Well, I just mentioned that I want to stand out, didn't I? Heh, so I'll work double if not triple hard on this coming exams. Like I said, I'm sick of being just the "Pass" student. I want to achieve something else.

Well, I ended up specialising in Digital Entertainment, different from my dear. But there's always a bright side to every event. We are in the same semester, and I think we happen to share some common modules. That's something comforting to know. Anyway, I'll be joining some guys from the next class in my specialisation. Hope I can stand out there, since I already know animation, even though the animation I learnt was the traditional way, not the computer way. But then again, the fundamental's there right? So I guess I have some hope of standing out.

Now that I've gotten into the specialisation I've been wanting to get into, I can't help but feel that something's missing. Maybe my passion's gone? I think so. So I hope to get it back, in one way or another. The entertainment track is a very promising track, I heard. And the industry's still quite small. People are trying to expand it, I guess. So I'm trying to get into this so-called "new" industry as soon as possible. This is because the market will get bigger and bigger and before you know it, it's overcrowded. What I'm doing now is probably what the saying "Strike while the iron is hot" means. I mean, it is really necessary, unless of course there's this probability that one may love big crowds in industries such as this.

Anyway, enough of this issue. Onto things that are not of relationship with education. Today I went to arcade with my good friend, Ben. Well, today was really a good day to play games. That is because I figured something which I previously didn't! Even some people were puzzled when asked about it! Hah! Guess that's gonna be a secret now... Hehehehehehehehehehe....... Anyway, because of the discovery, I managed to beat people whom I've never dreamt of beating. Hahaha!!!

On the way back, I ran into one of my former schoolmates. He was with his girlfriend. He said that he graduated from AJC, and now he's in the army. Well, I guess it's gonna be my turn soon. That's the way it works, we can't change it I guess...

Well, with that, today was a good day. But I can't help feeling that something's amiss. Yes, of course! It's my dear. I missed her cute face and her sweet voice. Arh..... So cute! Gonna see her tomorrow! Or rather, later on! Yay!!!

Anyway, I'm gonna go study right now. So I guess I'll have to stop here today. Japanese exam later on, wish me luck!

We've got tickets to the Spongebob Squarepants movie!!!

2005-03-25T03:27:00.000+08:00

Here it comes! The most awaited moment of my life, the project deadline. You see, everything comes down during this special day... It determines whether or not you will move on to the next phase of Poly education or not. Well, it's kinda quick, but then again, we all already expected that to come this soon.

Anyway, I'm almost done with the project. Or rather, I'll be almost done with it if I choose to abandon my shopping cart function. Anyway, I'm left with the project's overall GUI. So it's actually time for me to start working on it. I've got to finish it this weekend. I guess I won't be free till Monday then. This is saddening. But it's kinda informed beforehand, so I can't really complain much. Well, at least this part of the system satisfies me.

Oh yes, I almost forgot to mention something. I got into Digital Entertainment for my specialisation! Should I be glad? Yeah, I think so... I'm not sure what I'm getting into, and i know that I would be very much be on my own, well, more or less.. The only saddening thing is that the school chose to remove the only person from my class who's taking my specialisation next to me from the coming semester's academic course. Which leaves me all alone in an alien world full of people I have no idea who. But I'm still glad that there would be guys from the next class joining the same specialisation track. So at least there's some form of company. Yay!

My dear got into Financial Informatics, her first choice. Well, she must be happy now that she had gotten into it. Initially, she wanted to take Digital Mobile Computing. But since her dad advised her against it, she chose to go into Financial Informatics. I'm kinda glad for her, for getting into the track she wanted to get into. I'm also glad for another thing. And that is to be able to be with her for one more semester. I mean, there's bound to be some common modules somewhere right? I'll be counting on that fact.

Anyway, I'm rather disappointed in what I've gotten for the recent class tests, especially for the one I received today. I was like my efforts did not pay off. I'm so demoralised. I could see the way my dear try to divert my attention and make me forget about it, and couldn't help but find her even cuter than before! I now realise how lucky I was to have her! I'll cherish the fact that I've got another semester with mer in school.

Now now now... On to what happened today. Me and my dear went to watch a movie today. It was a change of plans from the initial Sim Lim Square trip since we weren't free for the weekend. Anyway, the show we watched was "Spongebob Squarepants". It was a wonderfully crappy show. I love it! I love the way the fishes react to King Neptune's head. Especially the "Ahh! My Eeyes!!!" part. There was also this guy from BayWatch. Hahaha... Well, today was a very fun day, except for some mishaps.

Well things like that are bound to happen everyday, if not every alternate days. Well, today's harassment from the stalker wasn't very intense, it was just enough to get me iritated.

But let's not talk about this anymore now, shall we? Oh yes, wish me luck on my presentation and upcoming exams! Best of luck to those taking them too!

Wheeh~!

2005-03-21T01:48:00.000+08:00

It's been some time since I've gotten this wave of happiness. Well, I gotta admit that I'm in good mood right now, but guilty in a sense that I've been neglecting on writing thie blog. Hehe.... Anyway, I'm since here, I may as well write something interesting.

Today went out with this group of funny people. Had a great time today, especially at Orchard. Totchi got stuck with this stupid team of people from Mediacorp. Haha. He was so unlucky to get caught up with the host and eventually got hooked up on some stupid contest of some sort. I guess I should say that he's fated to be in the contest. Heh. It's gonna be the third episode of some stupid show hosted by what's her name? Yes, Quan Yi Feng, I think there was another host on the other side. Yes, Kym Ng. Anyway, the show's gonna be on I'm not sure when. Haha... It was so funny... I turned around the moment I saw the host. Heh, managed to 'save' my two other friends from it. Guess we'll look funny on TV. And besides, I hate this sort of TV variety shows. But then again, that episode's worth watching, because it's funny. Hahaha.. Oh and by the way, I only got to know Totchi today. Hahaha... Kind of a rather hilarious first impression eh?

Well, that was what made me laugh all day today. Hahaha... Oh anyway, yesterday was fun too! Went out with my dear on a date. We went to catch a movie. But it was rather disappointing because the show we wanted to watch was not on show in the theatre we went to. We wanted to watch "Spongebob Squarepants" but instead we watched "Robots". It was kinda funny, the way the robots produce babies, the way they grew up, the way they cure bodily disabilites and problems, and also their society. It amazed me how their society is full of love, care and concern for each other, considering the fact that robots are supposed to be emotionless. Well, the animation featured the voices Hollywood stars, for example, Ewan McGregor, Halle Berry, Drew Carey, and one of my personal favourites, Robin Williams. Well, the show made up for the disappointment of not watching the intended show. So in the end we were still very satisfied.

Anyway, onto now. I'm getting rather sleepy, and I feel like sleeping. Maybe I'll fiddle with the computer for a while more. Haha..... Anyway, this week's gonna be rather hectic I guess... So umm... Whoever you are reading this blog, wish me luck!

*&^%$#@!

2005-03-14T03:30:00.000+08:00

Yep. I'm pissed. Pissed off with this society, pissed off with the school's admin, pissed off with the educators, pissed off with my Dad, pissed off with myself. Whatever...

First off, I'm partially demoralised. Why? Because of the memorising thing. This stupid society is making the stupid school system become even more stupid. And the 'stupider' system is making the initially stupid way of teaching even more 'stupider'. All these so as to produce the 'stupidest' people on earth, the blockheads.

I have to undergo all those stupid memory-straining obstacles to pass tests and exams. I mean, WTF? Why in the world do an IT professional need that much memory for? And also another thing. Also, even though I'm more right-brained than left, I can still come up with logical things. Truthfully speaking, I can even make logic out of absolute crap, which is precisely what I'm doing in school. Anyway, the school's way of educating is absolutely a piece of crap. It's so crappy that I wouldn't call it crap anymore. I think I'll call it trash for now, since I can't think of a better term to call it. Whatever.

I've had enough of the memorising thing, and I'm not really in the mood to talk about it right now, probably because I've been talking about it for like the past few entries? So I could drop the topic for now, I guess. Well, I'm tired of the system.

On the other hand, the system just 'amused' me today. So much so that I've had the most 'wonderful' time of all. For some reason, my Dad bit me today. He asked about my attendance. Well, being rather honest, I told him that there were a few lessons I didn't attend. Well, he explained that he had gotten a letter from the school and started chomping on my head. So, naturally, I got pretty pissed off with him and lunged at him. Told him to show me the letter to me, and eventually saw a very 'interesting' date. The stupid letter was dated "April 2004". I went, "WTF?! You screamed at me for this outdated thing? Hey, get more updated, old man... This old news!" and then tried to explain to him. Well, of course, my tone wasn't right. I was too pissed to calm my tone. So I literally shouted the explanation at him. I didn't care. I guess no one in my position would, due to the fact that I've had emotional scars from my Dad. Anyway, After explaining, he was still screaming at me, thinking that he knew everything (typical parental behaviour, I would say. I mean WTF?! You don't even look at the date and you scream at me? Screw that!) and blaming it on me. C'mon man, be rational. I can't even do anyting about it right now, and you want to bring it down on me just like that? Forget it. So I just screamed at him and slammed the door on him. What the heck!

So I'm in need of anger management myself... But who cares! Imagine having a Dad who comes home every single day to scream at you for not doing work when you are actually doing or have already done them, imagine also someone who wakes you up in the middle of your sleep and interrogates you for things you wouldn't even have a slightest idea about. This sucks, eh? Yeah, understand that, and you'll understand my life.

Not to mention on the fact that he was always bringing me down. I get 217 for PSLE and he said I scrimped through and made it to the "express" stream. I get 18 for my L1R4 and he said the same thing about me making it into this freaking school. Oh by the way, he still talks about my PSLE results and wonders how I've gotten here. Understand how I'm not interested in his talks?

Oh yes, he literally tries to bring me down in front of my friends and relatives. Whatever. So be it. He's on my "blocked" list.

So I'm at fault now? Yes, I know... He still my Dad, right? Wrong. He's abusing that status to unleash hell onto me. Should I consider that? I don't know. I'll see about that when I'm in the mood. Right now, I don't care. Absolutely not. So don't try to talk about it unless you expect me to erupt on the closest homo-sapien around me.

Fortunately, I went out with my friend today to catch a movie. Well, it's been a long time since I've done that. Went to watch "White Noise" today, couldn't help amusing myself by looking at how he freaked out and how he'd gotten disturbed by it, hehe, I bet he's probably gotten this phobia for radios and TVs now. Hehe...

I know, I'm black-hearted. But isn't that the way most humans think? Besides, it's harmless right? So long as I didn't do anything wrong, I don't see any problems at all. Not to mention the fact that I'm not even intending to do anything horrible...

Whatever... Bite me if you want... I'm in the mood for some stinkin' attitude.

Speaking of which, I think I'm getting pretty rough for now... Think about it... My friends are going to graduate soon and know what that means? It means that they'll be going to the army soon too. Well, that'll mean that I have to start getting ready for it soon.

Anyway, back to reality, I've got a quiz to take and a role-play to do later on... I should get some sleep. That's it for now! Wish me luck!

Help~!

2005-03-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

I have this urge to just scream out loud and curse the school's system. Come on, admit it. It sucks! Why is that so? It's been rejecting talent and also, killing whatever motivation that I have. I'm thoroughly demoralised by it. It's like I have no more motivation to push myself to work anymore. This is very depressing... It seems to me that no matter what I do, or no matter how I try, I can't do anything right.

Anyway, it seems that my expertise in user-friendliness is not welcome anywhere in this course. Even in HCI, it still applies. It appears that the tutor in this module is very 'blockheaded'. Why? She's just so stiff! HCI - Human-Computer Interactions. It means the interaction between humans and computers. The module involves the teaching of the ways humans and computers interact, and also the ways to catalyse the interation. Given the following introduction to this module, I doubt the teaching should be textbook-based, or rather, memorised. It just sucks to have the system make it this way.

It really really sucks, the way the school system work. It doesn't evaluate a person's true ablity to evaluate, it just very simply evaluates the person's memory, it's GBs, and for my case MBs. This is bad for me. Real bad. This is badness at its worst, although there are even worse cases. But it really sucked. Suck, sucking, sucked. Why? Because this whole thing is so shitty, it shits the shit out of me.

Apart from that, the way the HCI tutor thinks is very 'computer'. I'm actually beginning a theory to calculate her brain's flexibility. And so far, the result is just a big fat '0 (spelled as zero)'. It's just unfair that GUI is designed by blockheads, get what I mean? It doesn't make sense this way. Shouldn't people come up with new concepts instead of following the plain old rules and do the same old stuff for Christ's sakes? It's the complete opposite from what they quote NYP to be, ' The Innovative Polytechnic'! How can we be 'The Innovative Polytechnic' when we aren't innovative in the first place? Why is it that the school is overcrowded with stupid people who are just there to memorise things rather than to come up with new concepts?

It just sucks totally. If the system could just see and understand these things in which I have written. But unfortunately, they would most probably not. Even if they did, they would just find a way to silence me or something. Forget it, it's no use complaining. There's no use in being the minority in this big unfriendly world of idiots. Instead, let's pretend to be one of those idiots who perceive to be smart by just simply memorising plain old text and copying. Arh.. Another kind of idiots in which I would point a middle finger at.

Copycats, in this case, would be the ultimate form of idiots. As the old saying goes, 'Monkey See, Monkey Do'. I, being the innovative person in this case, would change it to 'Idiot See, Idiot Do'. Why? It is because of idiots like these, in combination to the stupidity of the memorisers, that the human race is falling. Apparently, there are idiots such as those who just bluff their way through without style. Those are called the copycats. They simply imitate their way through, making you think that that stupid parrot is human. Whatever. This way or another, it would still suck to be original. Just so because the rest appear to be more 'glamorous', they think that I am the one being unoriginal. Hey dude, I come up with my own concepts and ways to work. And people say that my way is not correct because I don't follow the 'standard procedures'? To tell the truth, the 'standard procedures' just sucked its way into hell!

The Devil created the evil way of memorising. It was made to make people become addicted to it, and make full use of the evil art to study 'efficiently'. It's so tragic that I don't even want to know it. Just so tragic. Anyone knows what this does to a human being? It destroys the natural ability to think, to evaluate, to create.

The Devil's been using this way to limit human advancements. Notice how those aliens from Hollywood films have technology higher than our's? It's because they weren't in contact with the Devil. They do not memorise and copy.

Anyway, I seem to be getting more and more crappy. But it's ok, it's still my blog. I CAN WRITE WHATEVER SHIT I WANT TO AND NOBODY CAN SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT!

One last word to add.

HELP~!

Unpissing...

2005-02-23T00:46:00.000+08:00

Well now. Nothing troubles me anymore. Hehe. I've put my anger management to good use! Though pissed I am, I will try not to let it out. Well, at least not let it out for no good reason...

Anyway, let's not talk about the sad things. I want to share the fun of the cultural exchange programme by the foreign language school. It started like in the morning, when everyone's still resting up from the week's strain and pressure.

Well, it started from 10am in the morning, at LT-S1. I met up with Huijiao and Cheryl and we all went in together. There, we parted and sat with our own groups. Anyway, the whole lecture hall was decorated with balloons, paper cuttings, things like that. I'm sure you know. And also, there was some drawing on the board. They looked like Japanese manga drawing to me. It didn't look relevant to me, but I guess it's not up to me to decide. Overall, I think the whole decoration thing was too 'Japanese' to me, and that it should be more local instead. I mean, the foreigners come all the way here and would somehow expect to see Singaporean stuff. And since they're here, I doubt they want to see things from their origin. Well, most likely due to the fact that they see those everyday and they want a change.

Anyway, they came shortly after, and the big shots were firing their loads at each other, trying to bomb us all up with their long speeches. I was rather surprised that they are delivering speeches to us in English. But that doesn't mean I feel the same about our board giving speeches in Japanese. But then again, it's only courtesy, so I don't have much to say about it.

Then would come the exchange of gifts for both parties, us and the Japanese. Apparently, those gifts were quite perfect. Since the Japanese like Chinese things, our school gave them a Chinese painting. And since the foreign language school likes Japanese things so much, it was perfect that they gave them two Japanese ornaments with the NYP logo on them. After the exchange of gifts, there was performance. First off, we have the Malay dance group. Seriously speaking, I think they suck. But then again, the Japanese might be interested, since they've never seen things like that before. Then we have the modern dance group. Again, they suck. I doubt they even made an impression on the Japs, well, since they would have their own brand of it.

Interesting things next. We had the Japs performing for us. They sang us songs. Songs from Yuzu, V6 and I think Speed. I'm not too sure about the Speed song, but correct me if I'm wrong. Haha.

Then out we go, to bring them on a tour around the school. They were complaining about the heat the moment they stepped out of the LT. Anyway, we led them on a meaningless tour, getting scolded by the stupid old woman from the library who claims to be a librarian who think that we are barbarians but in actual fact is a stupid old hag who's got nothing better to do than to scold us infront of our guests. I mean, she blew up the entire matter and blamed us for making noise in the library. Guess who's the one making most of the noise? I don't want to elaborate on that. Well, at least she shouldn't screw us in front of our guests, it's so darn degrading.

Anyway, on to happier things. We all had lunch. There were communication problems, but luckily for us, our teachers were there to help us out. And I helped a guy and a girl order food. Apparently, I helped them order chicken rice. Sounds simple right? In actual fact, not so easy. Anyway, all of us sat down and ate. There was this guy beside me who didn't eat his food. Well, he ordered char siew rice, which I think FJ's suck. He didn't eat any, and the girl who ordered wanton noodles from the exact same stall too. So, I guess we all must avoid that stall. Anyway, that guy was asking his friends to try out the 'local delicacy' and all his friends gave this very weird look after trying it. Haha. It was so hilarious. Wanna know something more funny? One of their teachers had the horrible char siew rice too. He didn't eat any. Haha.

Wondered why we never recommended them to eat the Japanese food? Because I think they're sick of it already. Try having it three meals a day, everyday for about seventeen years of your life? I think you get it. It's high time a change come.

Anyway, we went for some interaction time with them, and exchanged our presents. They gave us their name cards too. Shit me back then, I didn't ask for their e-mail addresses. Damn! Anyway, we related our daily activities to them and they described to us how Hamamtsu was like. It sounded so fun there! They even gave us a brochure to read. I read it and apparently wished that I was born there too! Or rather, wished that I was there. Haha!

We played some games, and I was shocked at how spontaneous they were! They actually love these ice-breaking games! Whooh! We had great fun there.

Then, it was time for us to part. It was a very reluctant moment, as we had to part with our new friends. But good times end, and we all go back to do our everyday-routines. So, we bid them a warm goodbye.

And after that, I went to look for my girlfriend, and went out on a date. I told her about the activities, and she wished she there too! Anyway, the day ended good, and I was happy. It really helped me get rid of the rubbish I had to endure for the week. Which is why I'm now 'unpissed'!

Lost Soul

2005-02-18T02:01:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered why there are so many lost souls in this world? Well, I do. How? Perhaps maybe because I'm one of them for the time being, or perhaps maybe I've always been one of them. Whatever it is, being a lost soul is not a pleasant feeling. In fact, it's a form of psychological torture.

Why in the world am I saying things like this? You would know if you were me, but too bad you're not. So I would like to ask you a question. What would you do if one day you woke up to find yourself owning half of whatever you were supposed to own, and knowing that you have achieved those assets with twice the effort put in? You'd be just like me now. Lost.

Why lost? Why this word? Well, this word has been the only word to use for now. Perhaps if the situation improves, I wouldn't be lost anymore. But then again, if the situation worsens, I would be more than just lost.

You must want to know my mood right now, wouldn't you? I'm feeling really really horrible. It's just like sitting on the fence, and neither side wants you. What's this feeling? It is isolation. As much as others want to, they can't help me. Why can't they? Because they are not the "Man upstairs"!

I don't know why. Is it God who's toying with me? Or is it that it's all my own doing? I have no clue. If I had a clue, I wouldn't be so lost anymore right?

Anyway, let me share this experience...

I've been doing my homework faithfully starting this sememster at school. I even took some of my work so seriously, I spent too much time making it perfect. Take for example, my HCI (Human-Computer Interaction) things.

I mean, c'mon.. Those things are supposed to be my expertise. And I couldn't even get a decent score for my class test, let alone excell? I feel that it's pretty much unfair to me. I mean, why should this module, of all modules, be one to be memorized? It's so damn freaking unfair! I mean, who needs to memorize things in the future when we go out to work? Why should we memorize? Shouldn't learning be simply learning rather than memorizing? And if memorizing text is the way, what's the point of learning? The authorities may as well send the students into the exams hall without teaching anything! It's equivalent to learning nothing! Gosh, I hate this!

Why must this society be so damn freaking unfair to those who truly have talent? Do you not prefer intelligence to memory? It's not like when we go out to work in the future we have to memorize things! We can always refer!

People have surpassed me not in terms of intellectual abilties, but in terms of memory. They simply take text from a book and memorize it. The points they write would be more complete than mine. Why? They simply throw out whatever they have memorized onto the paper! And text from books are usually more complete than the answers people like me write. Why? Because books are written by the pros, and I'm trying to evaluate and elaborate on my own. What is this called? This is called dependance. Or rather, over-dependance.

Look at me. Do I depend on books for answers? Nope, not really. Why do you think I know things that are not taught? It is simply because I use the left and the right brains, not the back portion! People nowadays simply do not use their brains efficiently! Why's that so? It's because of our Asian culture again.

The Chinese way of studying: pure memory. This is so damn useful! I mean, you could surpass someone a lot more talented than you by doing that! How nice! How good! How treacherous!!! Memorizing was never one of my strong points. It was the exact opposite. No... Not 'was', but 'is'! Because it still is!!!

Damn.

I wish I was born somewhere else, rather than in this place. Do you even call this a country? It's so small that we barely have enough space to stand if everybody decides to crowd around. The society in this treacherous country is encouraging people to memorize instead of study! Oh my God!!!

Help me!!!

I have no way out of this! It seems that everywhere I go, every corner I turn to, I come into contact with memorizers! ARH~!

Hey, I'm not being funny here. I'm trying to voice my opinion. Well, at least I do have an opinion! Anyone not happy?! I'm right here! Come bite me!!!

Screw not memorizers, they're most probably gonna screw themselves later on in life. Screw the government, screw the society, screw the system, screw everything that makes people memorize!

I condemn memorizing text from books down to even the lowest cannot be lower than this. It shall be an act that would land one straight into the arms of the blasphemous fallen one.

Praise those who stood their grounds and decided to study faithfully instead of memorize. The ways of the oriental are not always correct. Some can be very wrong (memorizing).

Praise the Lord who gives us food to eat, water to drink and air to breathe. Praise those who realize their mistakes and turn back to redemption. Praise our parents who have brought us into this world. Praise this world for being such a wonderful place to live in. But curse those people who memorize! They belong to nowhere but blazes! Damn them!!!

It is because of those idiots out there that my life is so lost right now. Thanks memorizers, for making my life so damn freaking happy...

Fun~!

2005-02-16T02:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a good day. Why is that so? It's Valentines day. Yay~! This is in fact the first time I'm celebrating it with someone I truly care about. Hehehe.... Did I enjoy it? Ooh yes I did! It was a fun experience. Hahaha... But there's a drawback to that. I was sick.

She was showering concerns onto me, worried about my unfortunate flu. I was so touched by the things she did. She didn't complain that I did not bring her any roses or gave her any cards. But instead took care of me. I realised yesterday that I was very very fortunate.

And on to today, when I'm still ill, sadly. She let me rest my head on her shoulder when I wanted to sleep. This sleep she allowed for a good reason: I was suffering from the after-effects of my cough syrup. Normally, she doesn't like me to sleep. Hehe... Guess being sick's not that bad after all.

Anyway, I love my darling very much. Hope you there reading would understand. Haha... Sorry for my enthusiasm, if you don't like it already... Hehe... Anyway, on to more lame things.

Today was a good day, considering the fact that I'm left alone by my stalker. And, I did not have much to worry about. Hah. I'm so glad he did not follow us to dinner just now. I wouldn't know what in the world I would do if he did! But really, we all must thank God for his wonderful arrangements. Hope that it would be kept this way.

Anyway, on to even more stupid things. I see my stalker's failure. Haha. He came to school the other day in full-black(Actually it was half-black because his stupid jeans had to spoil it all!!). I heard he bought that black Quicksilverâ˘ collar-shirt for S$79! I mean, it's purely a major waste of money and also considering the fact that he makes the shirt look bad(Not the shirt's fault, but his, actually), it's actually a waste of good quality clothing. Anyway, who the hell would come to school dressed like that, with a bunch of roses, attempts to woo a girl half-heartedly, and actually succeed?! Nobody!!! Not that I'm being sarcastic, I'm stating the cruel, if not pleasing truth. I mean, one less soul would suffer, and the rest would rejoice in it. It's worth the celebration, so much so that the government should make it a public holiday.

I mean, look here.. If the girl gets hurt by this stupid guy, she would condemn the worldful of men out there. Which means one less girl for the bachelors in the future. And also, if he did get her, she would probably be nothing more than a sparkling ornament. And that sparkling ornament wouldn't be so sparkling anymore when it's in his hands! So, it's divine arrangement.

Anyway, I enjoyed my Valentines day, hope everyone(with exception of you-know-who) did. Haha. And enjoy the rest of the few days of CNY!!!

Yay~!

2005-02-09T17:06:00.000+08:00

Hey! It's been a while since I've last written. Well, today I'll write about something. Haha. I'm so happy now I feel like flying! This is the term break after all.

I finally gotten over my sense of insecurity. Haha!! Now I can truly enjoy my term break. This is the only time I'll get to enjoy. Hehehehehe!!! Okay, enough of laughing..

Yesterday my girlfriend came over to my house to have dinner. Not just any dinner, but reunion dinner. Mom was very interactive yesterday, probably because she wants to make my girlfriend laugh.. Haha. Anyway, she said something funny about overboiled abalones. Something about it becoming very rubbery. Well, she even described how rubbery it was. She said that if you poke a hole in the middle, you can use it as a rubber band. That was one of the lamest things she could ever say.

Haha.. Well, it was very fun. And yesterday, my girlfriend was in a very good mood. I sent her home a few hours after the dinner. Hehe. And on the way home, she kept laughing non-stop! Hahaha... She was so cute!

Then the way she tried to stop me from drinking really made her so dear to me. So adorable!

Anyway, yesterday was fun! But on the other hand, there is always today and tomorrow to think about. Today was so boring. Chatted online with my friend whom I've known since kindergarten? And also joked around with some other lamers like for example, Mr. Salad.

Anyway, I'll be going out now. And oops, I just remembered.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Pressure Release

2005-02-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

Term break!!! Finally! Now I can take a break from the crappy things I'm doing. Anyway, it's going to be CNY next week! I'm so excited! Haha...

Well on the surface, this is how how it is seen. But on the inside, I have this very strange feeling. I don't know what it is, but somehow it bothers me. I think it is called 'pressure release'. It's caused by the constant pressure of work. I mean, I was under stress for so long, then when it finally comes to break, something would feel amiss. I don't know what it is, but I feel it. I hope it's just that, nothing more than that.

Anyway, this year's CNY is somehow ruined. Why? Reason is because I've got assignments due! This is rather stressed. It's like partying with a huge boulder above your head. You feel stressed as to when it would come down, and would naturally stay alert to be safe. This is the kind of feeling. I hate that. I can't enjoy this year's CNY.

Why's this so? It's because of MOE's stupid arrangement. Why so? They feel that the secondary school graduates have too much time to spare and do 'useless' stuff during that time, so they decided to cut it short. And because of this, we students have to bear the consequences. How? We are to have shorter semestral breaks, no study week before exams, and overlapping holidays. Also, because of those bastards from the ministry, we have to graduate earlier. Know what that means? It means that guys get to go army earlier. I bet MinDef must be damn happy, getting new recruits earlier. This affects me as I'm a guy(obviously!), and that I don't want to go in so quickly!

The army is a way to take somebody's teenage life away from him. We go in as teenagers, and come out as working adults. Why?! The government is too cruel to us! Why can't they abolish the stupid army thing? Isn't the world at peace? Why do we need the army anyway? It's not like they make any differences!

Anyway, enough of that... It's too demoralising to even think about it, much less write about it. So meanwhile, I'm going to try to relax and do the things I want to do while I still can.

Happy term break!

Surreal~

2005-02-04T04:37:00.000+08:00

Well, it's like 4.40am... How can I not be sleepy right? Well, of course I am... If I had a choice right now, I would be there lying on my bed, wandering around in slumberland. But hell no, I've got work to do! Well, can't blame anyone since I myself is an unrivaled procrastinator. Hehe...

I was doing my Flash animation just now when something miraculous happened. It crashed on me. And what's the most wonderful part? Make a guess? I was about to wrap up my work. So it was like "ARH~! WHY THE F*** DID THIS HAPPEN?!!! DAMN YOU, STUPID FLASH MX!!!" just now, but I'm glad I'm over it since I'm already done with it.

Anyway, I finally remembered to add those people in the stupid list of so-called "Future NYPians" or "Potential Freshmen". Why wait till now? Heh... A busy man's got his busy stuff to do so as to keep himself busy.

Whatever.

Anyway, yesterday's J2EE practical test was a massacre. Almost everyone died, and the survivors are the usual customers to the "Yarny's top 5% meetings". Anyway, I died too. Got stuck on the first part of the first question. Haha... Besides, there was this thing beside me. I mean the stalker. So umm... Do you think I would be able to do the test even if I did study and I know the answers? Absolutely not.

So I guess I'll be doing the extra assignment to make up for the wasted test. Mr. Chew's a dumb, stupid, idiotic and hollow-headed monkey-ass. I'd love to take the list of people and the question paper and shuff it up where the sun doesn't shine.

Ok, enough of that.

Let's talk about happier stuff, ok? Well, the only good thing that happened is that I can finally get some inner peace. Why? The stalker's hold on me is gone! Haha!! And, I think he's finally gotten the message. Yay!!!

Well lately, I've gotten addicted to some lame song salad sent me. Well, I don't know why, but it's strangely addictive. Hehe... It's been the only thing cheering me up... That of course if you exclude my girlfriend of course. She's been a dear to me. Hehe.. Never fails to brighten up my day.

Hey, anyway, it's 5am now. I've got to go sleep. Too tired to carry on. Heh... Wish me luck!

HEY LOVE CRUSADER I WANT TO BE YOUR SPACE INVADER
FOR YOU I WOULD DESCENT THE DEEPEST MOON CRATER
I IS MORE STRONGER THAN DARTH VAPOUR
OBEY ME I IS YOUR NEW DICTATOR
FOR YOU IS VENUS I AM MARS
WITH YOU I IS MORE RICHER THAN ALL THE TZARS
MAKE A WISHES ON A SHOOTING STARS
THEN FOR YOU I WOULD PLAY ON MY COSMIC GUITARS!!!

God's Angry?!

2005-02-01T15:19:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered if God would ever get pissed? Well, I did. Think of all the things He could do when he gets pissed. He could cause more disasters! He could do things to screw us humans! For example, screw the stock market, mess up our rooms, make our computers crash, anything. Absolutely anything. Well, let's stop that from happening ok? I mean at least try to stop that. Why am I saying things like that? The reason's quite simple actually. I'm a victim.

Well, it may not be very obvious thanks to the fact that I seem to be rather blessed. Well, I am not. Why am I not? Because I am having a tough time now, had a tough time previously, and I think I'm going to have it in the future! Why is that so? It seems to me that I'm not doing anything right!

Ever heard of the phrase 'You reap what you sow'? Well, I'm reaping a quarter of what I sowed. I don't know why, but I seems like I'm putting double the efforts in my studies, but I'm only receiving half of the rest of the people around me. I wonder why. Perhaps God is not happy with me? I don't know. Or maybe It's just me? Or is it that I'm heading in the wrong direction?

This is stressful. I can't seem to get anything right. Even when doing what I do best, I can't do well. I'm wondering... Is this part of the road to be successful? Or is this the downfall of the great Clive? Am I so damn great that the heavens above are getting jealous? Well, I don't think so, since I haven't even succeeded in life yet!

Whatever it is, I will try my best to get up. I must get up on my own. I will not be defeated. Not by God, not by myself, not by other people, not ever!

Ok, I've strayed... But that is how I feel anyway... Sorry about the complaints on life, God. You are doing a great job!

Anyway, just wanted to put something up on this pathetic blog. Thanks for reading anyway!

Anger Management

2005-01-30T01:59:00.000+08:00

I get pestered everyday by some joker who sticks like the stink on blue cheese. Well, this sucks. Especially those moments that I really want to spend peacefully. For example, when I'm thinking. You know, when you are thinking, you tend to need the joker beside you to just do you a favour and shut the hell up, right? Apparently this idiot does not know his limits and goes on and on and on blabbering revoltingly useless crap about everything I'm doing. If that's not annoying, I don't know what is. To add on, he stink too! Which is also the reason why I quoted the "stink on blue cheese".

Also, I haven't met anyone as insensitive and insensible as this person. Insensitivity lies in his inability to read expressions and understand language. I mean, does he even understand human laguage in the first place? I mean, do we have to speak Martian to this guy? Is he a martian in the first place? Well, back to topic, this guy is really oblivious to the anger of the people around him.

Insensibility would have to lie in his immaturity, which for example, his actions. There were times when he would moon-walk in places like Orchard road, play MIDI files on his cell phone and sing to it as if in KTV in places like the riverside behind the Esplanade. Well, this guy is obviously not of this world... ARH!!!

We might have been the few fortunate people or rather unfortunate people who got to see what's beyond the Earth's atmosphere!!! Isn't that something to talk about with your friends?!

Well, let me tell you the thing that pissed me off the most. He likes broadcasting things people don't want broadcasted. And he seems like a very sadistic person too! He takes joy in people's sufferings and misfortunes, and uses it to boost his own ego and perhaps in his way his popularity. Haha? No way!

This is the kind of idiot who deserves to be outcasted. Not that I'm the first one, but there were others before me. So, why should I care about idiots like him?! Ask me and I'd probably say 'I dont' care!'.

This is also the kind of joker who ruins your KTV session by cutting into your song and sing. Horrible things is that he sings louder than you do, so you don't get to hear yourself. Annoying thing is that he sings rather horribly too! ARH~!

Anyway, you people know who I'm talking about... In case you have no idea, you can always ask me!

Spent most of the time in this blog talking about him... ARH~! I really do need anger management!

Stalked...

2005-01-27T06:02:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, we get to meet all sorts of funny people in our lives. For example, I do get to be stalked by one. Well, now I fully understand why stalkers exist. They are here on this earth to pollute it with their twisted and corrupt minds which automatically brings forth its own evilness to their victims...

Enough of that, on to other things. Well, today's going to be a long day, not as long as Monday, but still considered rather long. So, I might want to be ready for it.

Off I go to start a brand new day again!

Disturbed...

2005-01-26T01:51:00.000+08:00

Today was an average day in the life of the great Clive. Well, I can't really say I love being me, but then again, since I'm stuck this way, I may as well just accept reality and embrace my life. Today was exceptionally disturbing for me... I was haunted by a supernatural being. I'm not really sure about it myself, but I feel that there's more to come.~~~~~~~

Oh God, what did I do wrong to deserve this? Well anyway, there are good things which happened too! Like completing my tasks on time despite being emotionally disturbed, getting back my long lost ez link card(it's been lost since 2 years ago!) which still has SOME MONEY in it and also finally getting into the mindset for doing my homework whole-heartedly...

Hard to believe it eh? I'm finally taking my work seriously!!! Hahahahahahahahaha!!!

Well, again I must say this... I'm going nuts. But then again, that's because I'm being haunted by a rather vengeful spirit... For those of you out there, you'd probably know what I'm saying...

Hahahahaha!!! It's a new start tomorrow. I'll be starting up a brand new day!(again)

Wish me well!

Rumour~!!!

2005-01-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

Today was a long long long long day... Got so tired by the end of the day, decided to call it quits. Well, I still have to collect money for the class funds... I still have to collect my ez link card from the student office. But all these I can do tomorrow. Got so tired that I didn't even go for my usual Monday night lesson.

Anyway, today was fun even though I ended up this shacked. Praise be to those who don't make my life any more tiring than it already is right now. Slept at 3am yesterday thinking that there was a class test, but then what happened was just a rumour!!! Hope that doesn't happen again soon!

Well, I've got to get myself ready for what's to come tomorrow, lest I want to be tired again... Good luck everyone!

Busy

2005-01-24T01:31:00.000+08:00

Busy busy busy... This is so frustrating!! I get blasted with work every single day, and hardly get any day to rest! Well, maybe I get the weekends free... But who cares?! I don't get any rest! ARHH~!!! Somebody save me from this crap! Oh God!

I think I'm going crazy, but then again, I have always been. Haha... Crapped. Well anyway, CNY's coming! Whooh!!! Hope I can get most harvestings this year! I'm sorta broke now, you know? Haha!!!

Anyway, here to wish everyone who's seeing this a very happy CNY!

I'm on!

2005-01-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

Well, this is great! But on the other hand, it's demoralizing... I'm really unoriginal... Now this sucks... ARH!!!!